My Email to Southern Maine Healthcare About My Stay (A Birth Story)

To Whom It May Concern,
  I wanted to leave feedback on my recent birthing experience from June 7th-12th. I hope this finds the right department. The customer cards were too small.

When Is It OK to Let Go Of Toxic People?

You ever hear of the saying "Misery Loves Company"? That couldn't be more true. It feels like a constant battle to try and surround myself with happy people. Especially in this day and age, with the world the way it is, and how difficult it is to live these days, even the happiest people have their days. But what about those people that have "those days" every day? They make no attempt to try and be happy and you find them constantly bringing you down, you start to question your own thoughts and behaviors?

When is it ok to ween out those people in my life that exhibit toxic behavior?

The "D" Word

I'm probably going to get a lot of scrutiny for what I'm about to say, but I have never been one to understand depression. In my personal opinion, depression is a state of mind that you can easily put yourself in. It's easy to be unhappy and it's your responsibility to try to find positives in life to look towards and make life seem a little better. I have been diagnosed with depression for a long time but am lucky enough that I found ways to cope without medication.

That Drunk Feeling When You're Exhausted

I spent most of the night staring into the blackness of my room trying to fall asleep. By the time I did, it ended up being an hour of running around hysterically trying to find my dog who went missing  until the alarm went off for work.
Now my eyes are heavy from crying and I'm so exhausted. I almost feel drunk or just ill in general. My whole body aches.

Have you ever woken up with that drunk feeling?

What's one thing for your baby that you couldn't live without?

So I thought I'd occupy my mind and start getting ideas for a registry/wishlist. I signed up with Amazon and then all of a sudden it hooks you up with something called jumpstart. The circled area in the photo above. Each category has more categories when you click on them. There is so many things you supposedly need when you have a child, so I started a public facebook status asking parents what the one thing for their baby that they couldn't live without?

Pregnancy Nightmares Are A Thing and Life is Scary

I'm about 14 weeks now and it's funny how well your brain knows how to scare you. First of all, let me say that before I got pregnant, I never dreamed, or at least never remembered them. It was eyes closed, black, then time to get up. The only nightmares I would ever have and remember were zombies. Which is one of my biggest fears but I haven't had those dreams in a while. 

What I didn't expect now that I'm expecting

Who knew being pregnant would wear someone out so much!? Well perhaps others knew it but I sure didn't. A few weeks of being back from our honeymoon and I started feeling ill all the time. My boobs hurt really bad so I took a pregnancy test that showed up negative which made me concerned about what it could be. To the doctors I go.
It was a shock when they told me I was 6 weeks pregnant. I guess I took the test a little too early. It's crazy how my body knew already.