Pregnancy Nightmares Are A Thing and Life is Scary

I'm about 14 weeks now and it's funny how well your brain knows how to scare you. First of all, let me say that before I got pregnant, I never dreamed, or at least never remembered them. It was eyes closed, black, then time to get up. The only nightmares I would ever have and remember were zombies. Which is one of my biggest fears but I haven't had those dreams in a while. 

In the first trimester, not only was I not sleeping well, some of my nights consisted of either being chased or trying to save someone. It wasn't too bad, but I often woke up exhausted.

This morning I woke up bawling so hard my husband woke up. My nightmare was so horrible; I was getting ready for work and headed out the door, and noticed my car was gone, and when I went to use my phone, I noticed the service was cut off, and eventually my phone went missing. I started freaking out because out of a room full of people, no one would help me, and no one else thought it was a big deal but I had no way of letting my boss know I was going to be late for work, and I was already 20 minutes late. Just to add that it's not just any job, where there are others to pick up my slack, it's childcare that I have never been late for, and someone is depending on me to be there to get him on and off the bus. It was terrifying to me to have no way of letting anyone know what was happening.

My husband couldn't help but chuckle a little, because when I said it was a horrible dream, you would think people dying or something much worse than it really was, but I'm still shaken up. I preach reliability so much I'll be damned if I don't practice what I preach. It's funny how your body knows exactly how to scare the crap out of you, it doesn't always have to be ghosts and goblins, sometimes life is scary on its own. 

google images; Scary dreams

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